Photograph from Parteet’s second workshop- Parteet Phase ll which was held on the 12th of June, 2016 at the Namdhari Dharamshala, Ramesh Nagar.
You all will agree that Sri Mata Chand Kaur Ji’s physical separation certainly hit us hard, all of a sudden. The fact that neither of any of us is going to see her now when we visit Sri Bhaini Sahib really upsets me and I’m sure it makes you sad too. The thought that she was smiling and in fact, blessing at the moment when she was shot brutally makes me lose my mind.
Can anyone reading this even think of the level of pain that she must be feeling in those 7 hours? An old, wrinkled though strong woman was hit and we, her lovable children got over it. Shame on us. Shame on me. Shame on my education. We could do nothing. We actually got over it.
Is this what one is supposed to get on the name of ‘Justice’? Is THIS all what Mataji deserves? Is this the limit of our love and respect for her? Is this all what we could do for her when she never in life second thought before blessing us with love & help of every kind?
Why are we weak here? Do not we have the will? Or, the power? Or, the finances? What is it that we lack? What is it that is strengthening the ‘delay’?
I remember how I used to cry freely when ever I stood before her, especially after Sri Satguru Jagjit Singh Ji departed. Although I’m still unable to get to the reason why and with what emotion. She just made me happy, looking at her ever-elated face from a corner, standing, while everyone else bowed down to her feet, asking for blessings. All I used to do was see her and be happy about that moment. She will always be one of the greatest reasons for me to have whatever kindness, heart and sympathy that I have within and I mean this.
We all are already highly aware of her love and everything that she had done for us, at some point or the other. You know what, There is a reason why every Namdhari Family has a photograph of Mataji in their kitchens, that’s because she was, rather she is, the caretaker of our nourishment and support. We all – be it a child, a second generation parent or a grandparent- call her ‘Mataji’ because she loved each one of us like a mother loves a baby that she has given birth to.
Let us, at least, stay strong and fight for ourselves and for our love for her. We can definitely not get away with this awkward situation because of our fading feelings. can we? I can not.
Dhan Sri Satguru Jagjit Singh Ji!
Dhan Jagat Mata Chand Kaur Ji!
Dhan Sri Satguru Uday Singh Ji!
Mata ji, always in memories
~ Nihal Kaur